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Under the weather this evening. 😔
Apr. 19th, 2024 06:58 pmSo I finally got in touch with a competent psychiatrist today. I've got a treatment plan set up, and I'll soon be assigned a therapist. My medications are all set up and recorded. I should be happy.
But for some reason, I'm not. My city Oakland, and by extension San Francisco, has become so hostile; the Kaiser Permanente just downtown now has a policy in place requiring their doctors, nurses, and pharmacists to take their lunch breaks and hold staff meetings indoors because of the spike in violent crime lately. Several places of business -- even banks -- have been hit with either burglaries, armed or not, or even just lunatics driving cars or SUVs into said places of business. Preteens are assaulting elders and stealing their valuables. And the gun violence... good grief. I don't know how the hell our mayor can expect us to just sit patiently until they address the problem. She said she'd have more law enforcement back in August. It took her up to this month to hire a new police chief. Wow, and like, how many businesses closed up shop while she took her sweet time fulfilling that broken promise?
One of my friend's birthday is approaching, and my other pals are waiting to hear from me if I'm going to join them. They're celebrating in San Jose -- a city also gripped by uncontrollable crime, not to mention fatal hit-and-runs are an almost common occurrence there. I don't know what to tell them, even my coworkers at my job don't go out as much anymore. I don't even feel safe in the city. Our city officials failed us, and they still expect us to go our jobs and pay our taxes. Easy for them to ask that of us; they're public officials, so they have security at their residences. Stupid, ignorant people with power who can give us off-the-cuff expectations and then throw out or contain protesters against their inaction in the interest of "public safety". Whatever. Whatever the hell ever.
I'm just gonna focus on myself for now. Gonna have to tell my pals I can't make it, I don't trust the city to keep me safe. I was hit with callous and ignorant racism in San Francisco late last year. I couldn't do anything about it, and now I have to shoulder this crap along with all the other bad memories still lurking in my head.
My supervisor at work always told me that I can't help others if I can't help myself. Looks like that comes first. I shouldn't have to accept going out into likely harm's way for hangouts with friends if the city officials don't give a damn.
Man, this is absolutely disappointing...
But for some reason, I'm not. My city Oakland, and by extension San Francisco, has become so hostile; the Kaiser Permanente just downtown now has a policy in place requiring their doctors, nurses, and pharmacists to take their lunch breaks and hold staff meetings indoors because of the spike in violent crime lately. Several places of business -- even banks -- have been hit with either burglaries, armed or not, or even just lunatics driving cars or SUVs into said places of business. Preteens are assaulting elders and stealing their valuables. And the gun violence... good grief. I don't know how the hell our mayor can expect us to just sit patiently until they address the problem. She said she'd have more law enforcement back in August. It took her up to this month to hire a new police chief. Wow, and like, how many businesses closed up shop while she took her sweet time fulfilling that broken promise?
One of my friend's birthday is approaching, and my other pals are waiting to hear from me if I'm going to join them. They're celebrating in San Jose -- a city also gripped by uncontrollable crime, not to mention fatal hit-and-runs are an almost common occurrence there. I don't know what to tell them, even my coworkers at my job don't go out as much anymore. I don't even feel safe in the city. Our city officials failed us, and they still expect us to go our jobs and pay our taxes. Easy for them to ask that of us; they're public officials, so they have security at their residences. Stupid, ignorant people with power who can give us off-the-cuff expectations and then throw out or contain protesters against their inaction in the interest of "public safety". Whatever. Whatever the hell ever.
I'm just gonna focus on myself for now. Gonna have to tell my pals I can't make it, I don't trust the city to keep me safe. I was hit with callous and ignorant racism in San Francisco late last year. I couldn't do anything about it, and now I have to shoulder this crap along with all the other bad memories still lurking in my head.
My supervisor at work always told me that I can't help others if I can't help myself. Looks like that comes first. I shouldn't have to accept going out into likely harm's way for hangouts with friends if the city officials don't give a damn.
Man, this is absolutely disappointing...
