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jasonderoga86To anyone here who knows somebody called "TwedeeNimbus" (as she's known here on DW) or "GanondorfMain7606" (as she's known on Comic Fury): She's hurting. She just left Oklahoma to live with her partner and his family after it recently succumbed to the GOP/MAGA Hate Virus. Now, very much like the late Joshua Alexander Moats -- a.k.a. "JM" & "Jmluvsbob" -- the toxicity of capitalism in America is robbing her of whatever love she has left for her art. Her last forum post on Comic Fury on JM's "Mental Healthish Things" was a vent that ended darkly. Out of respect for her, I won't post her vent here. But I will post what my response was:
“To my close friends here: Again, I’m breaking protocol from staying out of the forums indefinitely in returning to post after reading this.
Twedee,
This is so awful to hear. I'm feeling the same way right now, as did my late uncle (lost him to suicide 2 years ago), as did an old high school friend of mine (I saved him though) and as did JM himself. It is absolutely frustrating in this day and age how toxic capitalism has become. The SAG-AFTRA and UAW strikes were waged with this simple frustration as the impetus. I hate it as much as you do.
But your last sentence legit worries me. You "wanted" the pain to go away and you "wanted" to be happy.
Please don't do anything drastic, friend. You're one of the few people I have left that actually understands how unfair this cold world is, and apparently also what toxic parenting does to a person. If you need to talk about it, shoot me a PM. Maybe my experiences can help shed some light on how you can move forward.
Until then, PLEASE take care of yourself. Confide in your partner and his family if you have to. Please don't do anything drastic, I can't lose you too.
Nana Kumi-Amankwah, "JasonDeroga"
To everyone at CF: Comic Fury community, please give whatever support / love you can to Twedee (GanondorfMain7606) here. A lot of us are really hurting, and we just lost JM less than 2 weeks ago. We gotta look out for each other."
"All I wanna say is that they don't really care about US."
We lost Joshua to this unfairness. Hell, I almost lost myself to this unfairness shortly after Joshua's passing before Jazz, Matt Zimmer, and A Natural Beauty (Lady Jess on Comic Fury) were able to save me. Also, I feel compelled at this point to have to bring up this issue of toxic parenting to a local community group or something. I have witnessed firsthand from when I was 6 years old what having a malignant narcissist for a parent does to someone, and I've horror stories up the wazoo. I just saw some of the worst of it just this weekend, and I'm sick of it. I already have plans in place for eventually leaving the house but before I do, I intend to make it fully known to my toxic father (the source of all the misery, hatred, and venom contaminating what's left of this family) just how horrible he's been to us... and how pathetic he is to me, because a man of his intelligence and bravado could've easily sought out some help instead of turning his anguish into a weapon to bend everyone in this house to his will. Quite frankly, for a guy who claims to be a strong and accomplished family man, he's gotta be the weakest, most unprincipled, and most treacherous person I've had the misfortune to be born to. As of yesterday evening, he and I are now effectively strangers, NOT family.
But enough about me. Please send some love Twedee's way if you can. She needs it.
Peace and love to you all,
J.D.
